Good bye to my best friend
I had to say good bye to Kapler after 10 years of companionship. He was the best friend I have ever had. On my second date with my husband I introduced him to Kapler and let him know, Kapler was part of the package. Jeff came to love Kapler very much.
4 years ago we learned Kapler had cancer. Our vet removed the mass and he healed quickly. Kapler loved life, he loved to lay in the sun and warm his bones. He would roll over for me to rub his belly if he wanted to stay out when I needed him to come in. Kapler would bark at me to let him out or give him a bone. He would bark when I came home and we loved to talk. I have no clue what we talked about, but we talked. Kapler and I would bark back and forth. He loved it!
Kapler developed another mass. We did not know about in his belly. We do not know how long the mass had been there but the other night Kapler had a difficult time walking, he was panting and his gums were white. We took him to the emergency vet and they confirmed my greatest fear. The cancer was back and it was too far developed for us to do anything.
I had to let him go. It was so hard but I did not want him to suffer just for me. It was not fair. He loved me so much and trusted me to take care of him so I had to do what was best for him.
The house is quiet. I miss hearing him walk down the hall on the hard floor. I miss our talks (even though I have no clue what we were talking about). I miss rubbing his ear. I miss his smile and his loving eyes.